Saturday, June 28, 2014

Guided Imagery for Cancer Patients


Guided Imagery for Cancer Patients

The mind-body connection is a major factor in healing from cancer. Don't underestimate its importance in your recovery! As soon as you receive a cancer diagnosis, your mind becomes overwhelmed by scary thoughts that produce strong stress hormones. Cortisol and adrenaline pump through your veins and suppress the function of your immune system at the very time you need it most. Unless you learn how to turn off these stress hormones, you leave yourself vulnerable to the spread of disease. When I was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive cancer, I knew I had to find a way to calm myself down and be able to breathe again.

In 2008, I was diagnosed with uterine leiomyosarcoma. I was told that I had a 50% chance of living two years, and a 20% chance of living five years. That's enough to scare anybody! Well, it has been almost six years now, and I am completely healthy with absolutely no recurrence of the disease. My doctor says, "Remarkable! You're remarkable! You give me hope. Keep doing what you are doing." Part of my healing protocol has been to do guided imagery and meditation every single day. I knew from the start that my mind was the battlefront, because every part of our being, including our cells, sympathizes or responds to the positive and negative states of our minds. For this reason, when we are diagnosed with cancer, we must find a way to alleviate mental and emotional stress in order to allow our mind to be free to instruct the body to heal itself.

Stress produces hormones that can sabotage your entire healing program by interfering with the function of your natural killer cells, the ones that identify cancer cells and mark them for destruction. Your body chemistry reacts dramatically to your thoughts and your emotions. You may experience trouble sleeping, feel sick to your stomach, have difficulty thinking clearly, and suffer debilitating fatigue. Many health problems, especially cancer, do not permanently clear up unless the mental aspect is also addressed. The mind-body connection is powerful, and just as surely as your mind can make your body sick, it can make your body well. 

Listening to a guided meditation can shut off the mental chatter in your mind, bringing you to a place of peace and tranquility. It has the ability to reach deep into your subconscious and change your body's chemistry, stopping the release of stress hormones and lowering the level of cortisol in your blood. There are many nice recordings on the market - in fact, I own most of them - but I found that none of them had everything I was looking for in one place. So I decided to produce my own guided meditations beginning with the first one entitled De-Stress and Relax with Jeannie.

De-Stress and Relax with Jeannie is specifically designed to turn off stress hormones and restore your sense of well-being. Whether you are newly diagnosed, or on a lifelong journey to stay in remission, this first CD (audio download) will be invaluable to your recovery. It will teach you how to turn off the negative mental chatter that is so detrimental to your healing, and focus on the present moment, which is the practice of mindfulness*. The soothing sounds of ocean waves and beautiful meditative music send a signal to your brain that it is time to relax and heal.This is your time now, a time to let go of stress, anxiety, worry, depression, anger, resentment or fear. The more often you listen, the faster your body will enter the state of total relaxation and inner stillness, activating your immune system and releasing dysfunctional energy. You will empower yourself by learning to use your mind as a formidable force to make you well.

De-Stress and Relax with Jeannie will help you:

  • Reduce the Fear of a Cancer Diagnosis
  • Turn Off Stress Hormones
  • Lower the Levels of Cortisol and Adrenaline in Your Blood
  • Enter a State of Deep Physical and Mental Relaxation
  • Control Anxious Thoughts
  • Enter the Place Where Mind Speaks to Body
  • Manage Stress Levels During Treatments, Scans and Doctor's Appointments
  • Prepare You For the Next CD on Mind-Body Healing

 Blessings and healing energy to you! ~ Jeannie
*According to a long-term, control-group study by the University of California at Davis, mindfulness has the ability to STOP the release of stress hormones and lower the level of cortisol in the blood (Saron). 

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Long-Term Leiomyosarcoma Cancer Survivor

I hope you can watch my latest video message.

Long Term Survivor of Leiomyosarcoma

I saw my oncologist on Friday. He said it's time for me to "graduate." He doesn't need to see me anymore. After more than 5 years with no recurrence of leiomyosarcoma, I am thrilled! But I will continue to follow the strict regimen of the anticancer lifestyle for the rest of my life - after all, that's why I made it this far. I was able to engage my immune system to prevent the cancer from returning.

I have always told people that I am recovering from cancer, not that I have cancer. I began to say this right from the start. Your brain listens to everything that you say, so that's why you need to say that you are recovering. It's more than just the things you speak out loud, although it is very important to speak only positive things about your recovery. But it's deep down in your heart and soul that needs to be convinced that your are going to be okay. That's why you need to flood your mind with the right guided imagery as part of the mind-body component of this healing program.

Are you recently diagnosed? Let people take care of you now - don't push yourself to do anything whatsoever. Don't spend time doing anything that drains you, period! When you begin to feel a little better, don't go out and spend your energy. Save it and just keep relaxing. That way your body can use the unspent energy towards healing you.  Save your energy to do the healing routines that are to become your new way of living.

Your goal is never to feel exhausted. Whatever it takes. The only time you need to spend some energy is when you are outside walking each day in order to get your lymph fluid moving to remove the toxins from your body. Or when you are preparing raw, organic foods and juices. 

When you are sleeping, the immune system is activated. The supplement melatonin has been clinically proven to have an anticancer effect against leiomyosarcoma in particular. I take 20mg before bedtime and sleep 10 hours per night. If you can't sleep that long, have a guided imagery CD by your bedside and listen to it when you wake up (with earphones if you are not alone) but remain still and quiet to prolong your relaxation.  

The components of the anti-cancer program include mind-body work (such as guided imagery, meditation, reading stories about others who have overcome incurable diseases, and stating intentions and affirmations to be well), a detoxification program (usually designed by a Naturopath after they do some testing), avoiding environmental toxins, eating a mostly raw, organic, vegan diet, drinking freshly pressed carrot-apple juice and green smoothies and/or wheat grass, fresh air, sunshine, mild exercise, NO STRESS OR NEGATIVITY, some form of emotional clearing/healing (with a therapist, energy worker, acupuncturist, or self-healing guide), and supplements that have been shown to stop cancer from spreading (Liposomal or I-V Vitamin C treatments, Liposomal Curcumin, Pancreatic Enzymes, Fish Oil, Vitamin D, Silica, Vitamin E, Melatonin, Iodine, Glutathione, and Chlorella are some examples) and other supplements designed to change the way you metabolize estrogen - breaking it down in a non-toxic way that does not stimulate tumors (MK-7, DIM, and Lipotropic Factors). 

Some supplements require blood tests to monitor your levels to make sure you reach the optimal level but don't overdose. I work with my naturopath and my medical doctor to accomplish this. 

The first place for you to start is by turning off stress hormones (adrenaline and cortisol) because they suppress your immune system, shutting it down so it can't work to fight the cancer. So turn of your favorite laugh-out-loud movies, or music that evokes happy, care-free memories, and read through my blog. I'll show you ways to improve your well-being and connect with healing power you have within you. 

~ Jeannie

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Five Years Free of Disease

Five Years Free of Disease January 2014

Preventing Recurrence of Uterine Leiomyosarcoma is My Full-Time Job

It was November of 2008 when I was diagnosed with Uterine Leiomyosarcoma. My lab report said it was Stage II/III with a mitotic count of 100 in a 10X magnification field. The sky high mitotic count definitely downgraded my prognosis. Typically a mitotic count of 1-2 is low and 9-10 is high. My score of 100 indicated that the cancer had been multiplying rapidly. I was told I'd have a 50% chance to live 2 years, and a 27% chance to live 5 years. That's when I immediately embarked on a total change of lifestyle, one that would nourish my physical body and create a pervasive sense of relaxation and well-being. If I was going to ask my immune system to prevent this cancer from returning, I had to do my part by adopting the best practices to optimize my own body’s healing ability.  

My number one goal each day is to stay peaceful and calm inside, like it feels when you've just had a massage, or upon awakening from a deep and peaceful sleep. Guided imagery, affirmations and meditation help me to do this, along with walks in nature, acupuncture and deep breathing. My second job is to focus on the physiological and biochemical needs of my body - my nutrition, my supplements, my juicing, my exercise... and so much more. Since my diagnosis my body demands that I put my physical and emotional health first, and I don't feel guilty about doing it. You will need to decide that your health is more important than anything else and that your full-time job is taking care of you. At first, this is all I want you to do.

Your mind can aid in making your body well, but you will need to be actively involved in the process. I recommend that you take time off from your job for at least one year after surgery. I waited two years before resuming part-time work. Right now your full-time job is to make yourself well. You will begin a rigorous program of mind-body training, detoxification, and exercise. Time will be needed to shop for organic foods, juice vegetables, and prepare nutritious raw, vegan meals. My husband and my mother both remind me that my job is to focus on wellness, and everything else must be subservient to that goal.

Your body listens and responds to your subconscious thoughts, so it is not enough just to verbalize that you are going to become well - you must believe it in your core, in your spirit, in your "energy," in your subconscious mind.

Right now, your mind is the battlefront. Focus on everything that is uplifting. 

Realize that when you entertain negative thoughts, your are effectively using negative guided imagery on yourself!

Learn to listen to your heart - when your spirit is in balance, you will feel love, joy, peace, perseverance, gentleness, goodness, humility and self-control. When your spirit is out of balance and in distress, you will experience anger, resentment, hatred, bitterness, excessive worry, and the ultimate spiritual stronghold of cancer - fear.

I began this blog because when I was diagnosed there was NOTHING positive to read about survivors of Uterine Leiomyosarcoma. In fact, my doctor told me NOT to look it up on the internet! Since that time my blog has been reaching women all over the world, in nearly every country you can think of. I've also started a Facebook page where women and caregivers can comment and ask questions as well. 

I realize that if you are newly diagnosed, or if you are a caregiver of a newly diagnosed patient, that sifting though all of these blog pages can be a bit overwhelming. For that reason I have decided to write a book so that you can have the information at home in your own hands to refer to again and again. I hope to have my book available in the coming months. 

Remember that your body is designed to prevent cancer from multiplying. At one point, something got out of balance and your immune system failed to work properly. I know that stress played a huge role in my own cancer.  I also know that my body can change. It can be made well, nourished and strong, able to prevent the cancer from returning.

It has been five years since my diagnosis, and I have not had any recurrence of the disease. My body is preventing the cancer from returning. When I saw my doctor he said, " Remarkable! Remarkable! Keep doing what you are doing!" I most certainly will. 

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Non-Toxic Skin Care and Cosmetics

Nox-toxic skin care for cancer patients

Self-Care Products for the Anti-Cancer Lifestyle

The anti-cancer lifestyle is simple: 
1. Give your body the finest nutritional foods and supplements. 
2. Remove anything that takes energy away from your healing. 

I don't think any of us believe that chemicals belong inside our bodies. But in today's world, we unwittingly subject ourselves to many more toxic substances than we realize. Once chemicals find their way inside the body, the immune system must spend precious energy removing them. If we continue putting unwanted chemicals into our bodies, the immune system will not be able to spend all of its resources on healing disease. That's why I choose to reduce my chemical exposure by selecting makeup and skin care products with better ingredients. 

When I was diagnosed with Uterine Leiomyosarcoma, I went to see a Naturopath for a complete battery of tests. I wanted to know what types of things might be taxing my immune system and preventing it from stopping the cancer. The results came back:  my body had excessive amounts of parabens and phthalates. Personal care items containing phthalates include perfume, eye shadow, moisturizer, nail polish, liquid soap and hair spray. Parabens are man-made chemicals that are used as preservatives. They are widely used in self-care products and makeup. 

If you have high levels of toxins in your body, you may wish to include some homeopathic treatments that promote the release of these chemicals from the system. The medications I used are made by Professional Formulas. Sometimes you can find them online, but most often they are supplied by a Naturopath or other homeopathic doctor. 

Here are some of the products I used from Professional Formulas for my detoxification:
Beautox (for chemicals related to beauty products), Enviro Detox, Household Dust and Mold, Sick Building Detox, Mer Detox (for high levels of mercury)

For more details about my lifestyle of diet and supplements, please visit this page:  Surviving Uterine Leiomyosarcoma - How I Fit Everything Into My Day

My Naturopath warned me that if I continued my exposure to these same chemicals, it would be useless to detox them. So I replaced all of my self-care and makeup products with safer, less toxic ones. I wanted products that performed as well or better than the products I had used before, so it took a bit of testing to find which ones would be acceptable. 

Here are my favorites:


The Ecover line of Dishwashing Soap and Automatic Dishwashing Tablets do a great job.  Mrs. Meyers Clean Day products smell wonderful and offer a bit of aromatherapy while you are cleaning. The Method brand makes a great line of cleaning products, too, including Wood for Good and Daily Granite Cleaner. Microfiber cleaning cloths and mops are a great way to clean without chemicals. If any harsher chemicals need to be used, I let others do the application and keep windows open.


I cream my face with Earth Science A-D-E Creamy Cleanser both morning and night, using a soft microfiber cloth and warm water to remove it. Eye makeup comes off easily with Earth Science Chamomile and Green Tea Eye Makeup Remover, and you only need a small amount. Twice a week I exfoliate with Earth Science Apricot Gentle Face Scrub which has a nice fragrance. My favorite anti-aging product is Earth Science A/B Hydroxy Acid Night Rejuvenator. I use three pumps every night, and two pumps every morning before applying my makeup. The Hydroxy Acid Rejuvenator keeps lines and wrinkles away and leaves skin feeling soft and silky. For more dramatic results, I combine the Hydroxy Acid Rejuvenator with 3 pumps of Derma E Evenly Radiant Overnight Peel and apply them together at night as often as needed. A spa facial moisturizer that is less toxic and really works to plump up the skin is SkinScript's Hydrating Moisturizer. You only need a tiny bit applied with damp fingertips so it lasts and lasts. 


My foundation used to be Ecco Bella Flower Color Natural Foundation in "Natural." Now I am so pleased to be using Mychelle's Cream Foundation in Ivory and/or Porcelain since I discovered it about two months ago.  It is so natural looking but has coverage at the same time!  I follow it up with a light dusting of a loose face powder with no parabens.  I don't have a favorite yet. Next, I brush on Jane Iredale's Cotton Candy blush. It's such a pretty, natural-looking pink. (BTW I have tried Ecco Bella's blush and it is way too bright!) I like Jane Iredale eyeshadows, and prefer matte colors.  The quality is so nice! I suggest going in person to a spa where you can try on their products and find just the right color for you. There are several non-toxic mascaras that are good, but Mineral Fusion has one that is reasonably priced and works well. I line my lips with Ecco Bella's lip liner in pink, and then apply just a dab of Gabriel Color Sheer Rose lipstick for a bright pink, OR I line my lips with Boots No. 7's rose colored lip liner and fill it in with Gabriel Color's Rosewood lipstick for a more natural or "nude" look. For a glossy shine, I like Alba Botanica's Hawaiian Clear Lip Gloss in Coconut Cream. 


For self-care, I use non-toxic hand soap, lotion, and body wash. There are lots of good products to choose from - Nature's Gate liquid hand soaps, Avalon Organics liquid soaps/ shower gels, or Alba Botanica shower gel. I brush my teeth with Eco-Dent Tarter Guard Mint Tooth Powder, and whiten with Eco-Dent Extra Brite Special Care Tooth Powder. For deodorant I prefer Alvera All-Natural Deodorant in Aloe and Almonds. Perfumes are more difficult - right now I am using Yakshi Essential Oil Roll-On Fragrances in Whitestar Jasmine. I'd like to try something new. 

Please feel free to comment on your favorite non-toxic beauty products!

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Surviving Uterine Leiomyosarcoma - Naturally!

Incorporating a Healing Lifestyle 

into the Real Life of A Cancer Survivor

A Natural Approach to Uterine Leiomyosarcoma
My 55th Birthday - So Happy to Be Alive! 

Let's Talk About What a Healing Lifestyle Might Look Like

     I went for my check-up with my gynecological oncologist this week, and it's been 3 1/2 years without a recurrence of the disease. I feel healthy and strong, and in many ways much better than I ever did before. The doctor looked at my original lab report and pronounced it "remarkable" that I was sitting across from him, looking so vital. He told me to "keep doing what you are doing." There are many women who have asked if I would write down what I do on a daily basis, so this is for all of you!

     As I proceed on my journey to continually strengthen my immune system in hopes of preventing the return of Uterine Leiomyosarcoma, I face the challenge of how to fit all of the wonderful things I want to do for myself into every day life. Some of the most important things I do on a daily/weekly basis are:  juicing, meditation, guided imagery, preparing salads and raw foods, organic shopping, acupuncture, exercise, sunlight, breath-work, supplements, reading healing books, green drinks, energy work, emotional clearing, and lots of good sleep! If you are wondering how I fit it all in... the answer is YES, IT IS A FULL-TIME JOB!

     I would be remiss if I didn't first and foremost thank my husband for supporting me both emotionally and financially, allowing me to do everything that I need to do for myself. 

     When we were first informed that I had ULMS, my mother told me that I was going to be fine and immediately guided me to read books by Bernie Siegel, M.D., a pioneer in how the mind affects the body. His book, Love, Medicine and Miracles: Lessons Learned about Self-Healing from a Surgeon's Experience with Exceptional Patients, was the first in a collection of positive books about people who have been healed of cancer that I refer to on a regular basis. 

Reading List

Love, Medicine and Miracles by Bernie Siegel, MD
The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle  (I also have this on mp3 and have listened to it A LOT when I go for walks. Eckhart reads his own book on tape.)
A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle
Knockout by Susanne Somers
You Can Conquer Cancer by Ian Gawler 
The Hallelujah Diet by Rev. George Malkmus
Joy's Way by Dr. W. Brugh Joy, MD
Hope, Medicine and Healing by Francisco Contreras, MD
Chicken Soup for the Cancer Survivor's Soul  
Love, Medicine and Miracles by Bernie Siegal, MD
A Book of Miracles by Bernie Siegal, MD
The China Study by Dr. T. Colin Campbell


     Mornings are my time to nourish myself. I am a "morning person" so I use my best time to tend to myself rather than putting myself last. (This was an important concept to learn.)

     Upon awaking, I lie still in bed, face up with arms at sides, and mentally scan each part of my body, noting how each part feels. It's a lovely, dreamy feeling when your body first wakes up, and it's a great time to mentally memorize what relaxation feels like so you can learn to carry it with you throughout the rest of the day. Next, I imagine roots growing out of my feet going deep down into the earth, grounding me. I ask to be cleared mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually from anything that hinders my health and healing. Then, I listen for guidance. Finally, I take my hands and hold their warmth above any part of my body that needs healing. I imagine a white light from Heaven coming in through the top of my head and flowing through my hands, bringing a healing energy to any part of my body that needs it. This is part of what is called energy work.

     Upon arising, I always scrape my tongue and brush my teeth to get rid of  bacteria before consuming any food. I start the day by taking two tablespoons of Liposomal Curcumin (which stops tumor growth by preventing the formation of blood vessels which feed the tumor) and Liposomal Can-Help Complex (a liposomal nano particle blend of vitamin c, glutathione, curcumin, resveretrol, CoQ10, B1, B6 & B12 designed to replicate intravenous vitamin c results). It is extremely important to take these in liposomal form because they pass through the gut directly into the bloodstream. They are taken on an empty stomach, so I might get showered, clean the kitchen, juice vegetables, go for a walk, or check my e-mail while I wait to have breakfast.

     Breakfast includes fresh pressed juice. I juice once every three days and put it up in 8 ounce glass canning jars filled to the brim in the refrigerator. For practical purposes, I don't juice every day, but if you are able to, or you are fighting active disease I would recommend juicing every day. (My family juiced every day for me in the beginning.) I always juice carrot-apple-celery; carrot-apple-dandelion; cucumber-celery; and red beet-apple. In the summer I love Kale lemonade. Adding a little apple releases more nutrients in the carrots than if you do carrot alone. The nutrients in juiced carrots are cancer fighters. Dandelion is a liver detoxifier (and my mother had a dream about it healing me). Beets are also a liver cleanser. Cucumber juice is used at the Optimum Health Institute during their detoxification week.

     The other part of breakfast includes a piece of Ezekiel 100% flourless toast (made solely from sprouts) with 2 tablespoons of flax seed oil or coconut oil on it. Note that I don't consume any product made from flour. Flour products break down into sugar too quickly and are NOT consumed on the anti-cancer diet. At that time I drink a cup of organic, water processed decaf coffee with coconut milk creamer. Yum! I take supplements with breakfast, lunch and dinner.

My Supplementation Schedule 

(B = at Breakfast, L = at Lunch, D = at Dinner) 
I put my capsules and tablets in a pill divider that is marked Breakfast/Lunch/Dinner/Bedtime. I bought a pack of seven dividers, so I load up all of my supplements once a week and I am set to go! It makes all the difference.

1. Healthy Items' Liposomal Curcumin, anti-cancer, stops tumors from establishing blood vessels - before Breakfast on empty stomach, wait 10 mins.
2. Healthy Items' Can-Help, anti-cancer, if you aren't on IV Vitamin C infusions this is the next-best treatment, before Breakfast on an empty stomach, wait 10 mins. to eat

3. Broken Cell Wall Chlorella for increasing the function of your immune system, 2 gm. divided B-L-D
4. Multi-Enzyme High Potency digestive enzymes Dr. Murray, 1 at B-L-D
5. Nature's Way DIM-plus for estrogen metabolism, important for estrogen positive tumors, 1 at L
6. Jarrow MK-7 from Natto, bone/cardiovascular health, reduces inflammation and increases cancer cell death, 1 at L
7. Integrative Lipotropic Complex supports liver  function, supports proper estrogen metaboliztion, 2 at B, 3 at D
8. Natural Factors Biosil for skin, hair, nails, bones, made of Silica that strengthens the immune system and detoxifies the liver, 6 drops at B
9. Carlson's 2000IU Liquid D3 for immune system, 2 drops at B
10. Liquid Iodine Plus, anti-cancer, 3 drops at B, 3X per week
11. Nature's Life Organic Beef Liver tablets supports muscles, 1 at B-L-D
12. New Chapter Bone Strength whole food calcium, 2 at B-L-D (1440 mg. calcium which is twice the dose on the bottle) for bones and anti-cancer
13. Whole Food multi-vitamin/mineral, I try different brands as directed B-L-D
14. Jarrow Silymarin Milk Thistle anti-inflammatory 1 at D
15. Ayurceutics Boswellia anti-inflammatory 1 at L 
16. Barlean's High Lignan Flax Seed Oil, 1 TBSP at B
17. Carlson's Norwegian Cod Liver Oil, 1 TBSP at L
18. G.T.'s Kombucha, one bottle a day, 5 X per week, anti-cancer digestive supplement, immune system, fermented raw drink
19. Sometimes - Garden of Life Primal Defense Probiotic (multiple strains and refrigerated is a must)
20. GermanZyme pancreatic enzymes, they dissolve the protein coating around cancer cells, allowing the immune system to destroy them, 2 at B-L-D
21. Chinese Mushroom formula used in Chinese Medicine from acupuncturist, enhances immune system, 2-3 B-L-D

Anti-Cancer Hormones

1.  Melatonin 25 mg. at bedtime, anti-cancer and sleep-aid. Melatonin has been proven in scientific studies to cause cancer cell death in leiomyosarcoma in particular!!
2.  Bioidentical Estriol from naturopath, hormone replacement cream  2X per week, pea-sized amount applied vaginally 
3. Sometimes - Bioidentical Progesterone capsules from naturopath for hormone balance
4. Sometimes - DHEA oral spray from naturopath for hormone balance
Note:Only use bioidentical hormones when you have had cancer, and work with a Naturopath that specializes in hormones. Replacing hormones can give you energy and a sense of well being, making you feel younger. 

For the first 2 1/2 years I was a raw Vegan, following the Hallelujah Acres Diet. But in the past year I have had to add a small amount of organic, free-range animal protein back into my diet to build up my muscle tissue. Nuts and lentils just weren't doing it for me! Once a week I eat a couple of organic, cage-free, free-range eggs for breakfast. Locally grown is best. Once every week or two I will enjoy Wild-Caught Salmon. I never eat dairy because the protein found in dairy, known as casein, was used in numerous laboratory studies to turn on and off cancerous tumors on in mice (The China Study). I don't eat chicken, pork or beef. I don't eat products made from flour; instead I eat organic, sprouted, flourless products from Ezekiel or Oasis bakeries, but no more than one slice per day. Corn and soy are notorious genetically modified foods - I never eat them unless they say organic and non-GMO. I also avoid sweets with the exception of organic, dark chocolate. For the most part, you are better off to eat a piece of fruit as your "treat." I don't use Agave - from my research it is no better than high fructose corn syrup. When my sweet tooth calls, I look for the lowest grams of sugar in organic dark chocolate. :)


The middle of the morning is a very productive time for me. My original tendency was to work hard at this time. But I have changed that! Now I use that time to make sure I get done the things I need to do for myself first. So I may juice, go shopping at my favorite organic store, prepare my salads, read a healing book, exercise or get out in the sunlight at this time. I never tire myself out! A wise holistic MD once told me that you should SAVE YOUR ENERGY FOR HEALING. If you are in the early stages of recovery, sit outdoors and read a book. Relax! Allow your body to use the energy it has to heal you. Don't use up all of your energy doing things until you feel tired. Now I get a lot done each day without getting tired. But I make sure to only do one or two big things a day and always STOP before I feel worn out. I always take along my green drink or drink it right before I go.

Lunch Time

For Lunch I sit down and have a big, organic salad with spinach, arugala, 2 kinds of sprouts (pea sprouts or sunflower sprouts and broccoli sprouts), raw broccoli, tomatoes, red onions, strawberries or blueberries (in season), cucumber, red bell pepper, and purple cabbage. That is my standard salad. I make other salads with fewer ingredients, but my standard salad ensures that I have dark greens, calciferous veggies and sprouts that I must consume daily. I enjoy an ak-mak organic cracker with soup or salad. I love to drink a Kombucha with my lunch and perhaps another juice at this time. In the colder months, I make soup from a base of organic broth with carrots, leeks,tomatoes, zucchini, yellow onions, red lentils, split peas, garlic and seasonings. I also enjoy  tomato-basil soup, vegetable soup, broccoli soup, carrot-ginger soup all made from scratch with organic ingredients.


Organic Apple Slices with Raw Almond Butter
Organic Celery and Organic Peanut Butter
Half Banana with Organic Peanut Butter
Green Smoothie (Barley Max Berry, 1/3 Frozen Banana, Small Bunch Kale, Ice and Water, Blended in Vitamix Blender)
Humus  *   Kale Chips  *  Fruit  *  Raw Organic Nuts *  Berries


After taking care of my own needs in the morning, I work from home professionally, but no more than 10 hours per week. I also do paperwork, errands, and cooking for my family in the afternoon. If I ever feel like my energy is running low, I will relax and watch movies, or even take a nap after a meditation. Another juice, Kombucha, or green drink should be consumed every two or three hours.

Dinner and Evening Time

Dinner consists of another serving of salad with a small portion of something cooked. It might be a steamed vegetable, an occasional sweet potato, or a small portion of a vegetarian dish. Another favorite is Raw Nut Burgers made from organic, raw, ground walnuts, almonds and sesame seeds mixed with minced red bell peppers, garlic, onions, Nama Shoyu and cayenne pepper.

The evening is spent helping my son with homework and catching up on shows I like to watch. I try to drink one more green drink in the evening.


When I have time, I love to go to my sanctuary and do a short meditation before going to bed. It is sooo relaxing and gets my body ready for the most healing time of day - when I am asleep. I sleep for 10 hours a night. Sleep is vital if you want to heal from disease.

Descriptions of Things I  Do Daily or Weekly

1. Juicing - I juice vegetables and put up jars to drink over the next day or two. I do this every third day. I drink at least 2 glasses of fresh pressed vegetable juice and 2 Barley Max or green drinks every day. When I was first diagnosed I drank one 8 ounce glass of juice every hour of the day. It is an essential part of healing from cancer. Juice provides nutrients that go directly into the bloodstream without having to be digested.

2. Meditation and Guided Imagery - I do this every day. Sometimes I listen to Guided Imagery when I take a walk outside. Other times I sit in a special place that I have made for myself where I meditate with incense, candles and music. Another way to meditate is to read one of the healing books and allow the thoughts to bring healing to the mind. Many of the Guided Imagery CD's also include energy work. 
Deuter - a great artist who makes music for meditation - Buddha Nature and Reiki Hands of Light are favorites
Native American Flute Music for Meditation

3. Exercise and Sunlight - I try to do some form of exercise and get out in the sunlight 3-4 times a week. Sometimes it means eating a meal outside on my deck, or going for a walk on the trail. I also enjoy Jazzercise, Zumba, and a circuit at the gym. My goal for this summer is to exercise a lot more! Exercise boosts the immune system by stimulating the lymphatic system which eliminates toxins. In order to get the lymph fluid flowing, you must MOVE your body. It doesn't have a pump like the heart does to move the blood. Aerobic activity is the best way to do this.

4. Shopping and Preparing Salads - I shop at an organic co-op that has the freshest, organic produce possible. I make one or two huge salads that will last me for  5 to 7 days. This way I just grab of big portion of my salad for lunch and dinner, without the constant preparation. 

5. Emotional Clearing and Healing - I found it imperative to go through the Cancer Self-Healing Guide. It took me many months to journal through all of the questions, but it allowed me to clear myself of all old wounds which some cancer experts believe can cause a recurrence of the disease. Now I do a daily clearing, asking the Heavens to clear me of anything that binds me emotionally. I pay close attention to my heart and my gut, so I don't allow anger or resentment to take root in my pain body.

6. Acupuncture - At least once a week I go for acupuncture. I found a practitioner that creates a great space with music and candles. She teaches me about energy work and energy healing as well as doing my acupuncture sessions. Acupuncture is an absolute MUST for my well-being, healing, and physical comfort. 


7. Non-Toxic Environment and Non-Toxic Beauty - In the beginning I worked with a naturopath who used lab tests and homeopathic remedies to help detoxify my system. Now I use all non-toxic products to clean my home. Everything that touches my body, face, and scalp are always non-toxic, free of parabens, SLS and unwanted chemicals. (I'll do a page on beauty in upcoming months)


Here is a sample of my most recent grocery receipt to give you an idea of what I buy:

Everything I Buy is Organic! 
Low Sodium Broth
Salad Dressings - lots of variety 
Raw Almond Butter
Unprocessed Coconut Oil
Red and Yellow Onions
Cherry Tomatoes
Red Lettuce X2
Romaine Lettuce X2
Baby Spinach - huge box
Pea Greens
Sunflower Greens
Broccoli Sprouts
Large Slicing Tomatoes
Broccoli Crowns
Zucchini Squash
Dry Red Lentils
Dry Split Peas
Ezekiel Spouted Flourless Bread
Dandelion Greens
Loose Red Beets
Pink Lady Apples
Mineolas or Oranges
A little stone fruit in the summer like Peaches, Plums & Nectarines
Lemons and Limes
Ginger Root
Raw Almonds
Raw Walnuts
Olive Oil
Balsamic Vinegar or Apple Cider Vinegar 
Ak-Mak Crackers
Dark Chocolate Bar, 70% or higher

Age 64 in 2020, Grateful and Positive about Life! 

Now that I am 12 years post diagnosis, I include organic, pastured beef and chicken and eggs in my program. I was vegan for four years at the beginning of my recovery but found that my muscles were wasting away. I need a lot of protein as I am older to maintain a good muscle mass. Organic, pastured meats and eggs provide important sources of nutrients and do not create the need for insulin like grains, sugars and starchy carbohydrates, which are at the heart of foods that create disease. I believe organic meats and eggs are much healthier than protein powders. I continue to consume raw juices, salads, lots of low glycemic vegetables, etc. but just added in better protein sources for my body. 

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Liposomal Supplements: Proven Cancer Fighters

Nano-technology Liposomes Deliver Supplements Directly to the Cells!

M.D.Anderson is doing clinical trials with Nano-Curcumin and Resveratrol.

I know that a large portion of the oral supplements I take pass through my body and are excreted into my urine.

I also know that laboratory studies using vitamins and herbs to stop the growth of cancer cells have been successful when they are administered directly to the cells.

Vitamin C (like Curcumin and Resveratrol) is very difficult for the body to absorb when taken orally. This is particularly true when Vitamin C is taken in large oral doses. Until the advent of Liposomal Vitamin C, the only efficient method of getting therapeutic levels of Vitamin C into the blood stream was intravenously. This required administration and attendance by a physician or nurse practitioner.

Liposomal supplements are a new breed of supplements which are able to deliver Vitamins and Herbs directly to the cellular level, unlike any other traditional pill or liquid form.

Nano-technology refers to creating micro particles of the active material one wishes to coat with liposomes - in this case Curcumin, Vitamin C, Glutathione, CoQ10, and Resveratrol. This requires expensive equipment and considerable time to complete. These micro particles are then inserted into special fat soluble materials resembling micro bubbles just a few millionths of an inch in diameter which are capable of sliding through the gut lining without being digested. The “bubbles” are now in the blood stream and are offered to the cells of the body as needed. As with the gut wall, the cell wall loves liposomes because they are made up of similar material (phosphytidal choline, lecithin, phosphytidal serine, CLA, etc) and the enclosed Anti-Cancer Supplement is delivered directly into the cell, while the liposomes are used by the cell wall or for other functions within the cell.

Doctors in Germany and other areas of Europe are now using liposomal encapsulated anti-cancer drugs as well as liposomal encapsulated anti-cancer supplements. M.D. Anderson is doing clinical trials with Nano-Curcumin and Nano-Resveratrol. Here's the thing - "Patients must have an advanced malignancy that has either failed one or more prior therapies, or for which there is no established standard of care therapy that improves survival by at least 3 months." In other words, if they can use Chemo or Radiation to extend your life 3 months, you can't be part of the trial. So they are testing these supplements on very sick individuals. Why not conduct a trial testing these Nano-technology Liposomals on people who have earlier stages of cancer to see if they can prevent metastases?

I don't need to wait for a clinical trial. I'm getting the latest technology into my body right away! I'm encouraging my husband to use it, too, as a preventative.

I felt that it was time to re-evaluate my supplements, and after learning about the liposomal encapsulated Vitamin C and Curcumin, I made the following changes:

I'm now taking 2 Tablespoons a day of Liposomal CAN-HELP Complex Nutritional Support Formula, with Liposomal Vitamin C, Glutathione, Resveratrol, Curcumin, CoQ10 and Vitamins B1, B6, B12 & Folic Acid, designed to provide nutritional support for the cancer patient.

I'm taking 1 Tablespoon a day of Liposomal Curcumin which is proven to stop angiogenesis- blood vessels that help cancer grow. "When rats with mammary cancer were given 200mg/kg of Curcumin each day for just five days, the tumors were significantly inhibited. This would mean that a 165 pound female would have to ingest 15,000 mg of Curcumin on a daily basis - unless you were using Liposomal Curcumin, then you would only need about 1,200 mg. Quite a difference! Just four teaspoonfuls of the Liposomal Curcumin would give you that amount!"

I'm taking 1 Tablespoon a day of Liposomal Resveratrol. “Resveratrol can inhibit all three stages of chemical carcinogenesis - tumor initiation, promotion and progression.” This study was later published in the medical journal Lancet.

Here are the other things I continue to take:

Bio-identical Hormones made at a compounding pharmacy and prescribed by my Naturopath, Dr. Mazza. I take Estrodial, Progesterone and DHEA. She monitors my blood and saliva to check my balance. (Update - I'm only using a tiny bit of Estrodial 2x a week.)

New Chapter whole food Calcium (2 tabs/ 3x a day)
Jarrow MK-7 (1 per day)

Carlson's Liquid Vitamin D-3 (8 drops)

Nature's Way DIM-plus (1 per day)

Natural Factors Liquid Biosil Silica (6 drops)

Integrative Therapeutics Lipotropic Complex (methylation support) (3 caps/ 2x a day)

Barlean's High Lignan Flax Seed Oil (1 Tbsp.)

Carlson's Norwegian Fish Oil (1 Tbsp.).

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In addition to taking these liposomal supplements, I use guided imagery every day to reduce the stress hormones that suppress the immune system. It helps me to calm my nerves and activate the mind-body healing connection.

For more information, visit the Guided Imagery for Cancer Patients tab at the top of my blog.

Please leave a comment if you have a supplement that has made a difference in your treatment of cancer. Blessings to you! Jeannie

Monday, April 11, 2011

Color Meditation for Healing and Balancing

Create a special environment for your meditation with candles and flowers. It gives a signal to your body to relax.

"Once I've reached a state of total relaxation during a meditation, I begin visualizing Energy in the form of a glittering purple Light as it goes through every system in my body - cleansing, healing, and empowering my immune system." Jeannie Ross

 The human body is not just the blood and bones we perceive on the physical plane. We are made of energy that permeates every layer of our being. What we know as the physical body is energy that is vibrating more slowly than the energy that is beyond our standard perception.

According to W. Brugh Joy, M.D., throughout our body we have centers of energy which are connected to major organs or glands that govern other body parts. When these energy centers are out of balance, the body does not function optimally. Meditation is a good time to go through each of these areas, one by one, and direct thoughts of healing and love into each center.

Sunlight contains the full spectrum of color in the form of energy. Daily exposure to fresh air and  sunlight is an important part of my healing protocol. 
Don't worry if it is not "sunny" outside - just get out in the day-light. Take a walk, read a book, or look at nature. Sunlight will stimulate your body to produce far more vitamin D than you can get from a supplement!

The Color Meditation  
Once I've reached a state of total relaxation during a meditation session, I begin visualizing Energy in the form of a glittering purple Light as it goes through every system in my body - cleansing, healing, and empowering my immune system. Then I go through the energy centers, one by one, and visualize them bathed in their own energy color, as shown on the chart.  Start by spending 1-2 minutes on each area and work up to 5 minutes per area. 

My favorite meditation music:

Reiki - Hands of Light by Deuter

East of the Full Moon by Deuter 

Buddha Nature by Deuter 

My mother is my meditation partner.

God bless her soul, my precious mother passed away on December 23, 2019. She always encouraged me in my healing journey and was ready to participate in all of the wonderful healing modalities with me. I miss her dearly. 

Thursday, March 3, 2011

The Cancer Personality - Healing Emotions

The Cancer Personality 

Once I was diagnosed with cancer, it became my full-time job to do everything I could to empower my immune system to prevent a recurrence of the disease. That was very important because I was given a 20% chance of living 5 years, and no medical treatments had been successful at extending the survival time. It had to be my own immune system that would keep the cancer from returning. 

I knew in my heart that I had been under a lot of stress, and I was ready to relinquish control in order to heal. Working with a therapist, I completed the 28 Tasks in the Cancer Self-Healing Guide from the Puna Wai Ora Mind-Body Cancer Clinic in New Zealand. It's designed to help you heal the root psycho-emotional cause of cancer - because when life is hard, we may develop an unconscious desire to exit this life which must be addressed if we want to heal completely. 

What is the Cancer Personality Type?

According to Dr. W. Douglas Brodie: "In dealing with many thousands of cancer patients over the past 28 years, it has been my observation that there are certain personality traits present in the cancer-susceptible individual. These traits are as follows:
1. Being highly conscientious, caring, dutiful, responsible, hard-working, and usually of above average intelligence.
2. Exhibits a strong tendency toward carrying other people's burdens and toward taking on extra obligations, and often "worrying for others." 

3. Having a deep-seated need to make others happy. Being a "people pleaser" with a great need for approval. 

4. Often lacking closeness with one or both parents, which sometimes, later in life, results in lack of closeness with spouse or others who would normally be close. 

5. Harbors long-suppressed toxic emotions, such as anger, resentment and / or hostility. The cancer-susceptible individual typically internalizes such emotions and has great difficulty expressing them. 

6. Reacts adversely to stress, and often becomes unable to cope adequately with such stress. Usually experiences an especially damaging event about 2 years before the onset of detectable cancer. The patient is not able to cope with this traumatic event or series of events, which comes as a "last straw" on top of years of suppressed reactions to stress. 

7. Has an inability to resolve deep-seated emotional problems/conflicts, usually beginning in childhood, often even being unaware of their presence. 

Typical of the cancer-susceptible personality, as noted above, is the long-standing tendency to suppress "toxic emotions", particularly anger. Usually beginning in childhood, this individual has held in their hostility and other unacceptable emotions. 

More often than not, this feature of the affected personality has its origins in feelings of rejection by one or both parents. Whether these feelings of rejection are justified or not, the individual perceives this rejection as real, and this results in a lack of closeness with the "rejecting" parent, followed later in life by a lack of closeness with spouses and others with whom close relationships would normally develop. 

Those at the higher risk for cancer tend to develop feelings of loneliness as a result of their having been deprived of affection and acceptance earlier in life, even if this is only their perception. They have a tremendous need for approval and acceptance, and develop a very high sensitivity to the needs of others while suppressing their own emotional needs. 

They become the "caretakers" of the world, showing great compassion and caring for others, and will go out of their way to look after others. They are very reluctant to accept help from others, fearing that it may jeopardize their role as the caretaker. Throughout their childhood they have been typically taught "not to be selfish", and they take this to heart as a major lifetime objective. 

All of this is highly commendable in our culture, but must be somehow modified in the case of the cancer patient. A distinction needs to be made here between the "care-giving" and the "care-taking" personality. There is nothing wrong with care-giving, of course, but the problem arises when the susceptible individual derives their entire worth, value and identity from their role as "caretaker". If this very important shift cannot be made, the patient is stuck in this role, and the susceptibility to cancer greatly increases. 

As already stated, a consistent feature of those who are susceptible to cancer appears to be that they "suffer in silence", and bear their burdens without complaint. These burdens of their own as well as the burdens of others weigh heavily upon these people through a lifetime of emotional suppression. The carefree extrovert, on the other hand, seems to be far less vulnerable to cancer than the caring introvert described above. How one reacts to stress appears to be a major factor in the larger number of contributing causes of cancer. 

Most cancer patients have experienced a highly stressful event, usually about 2 years prior to the onset of detectable disease. This traumatic event is often beyond the patient's control, such as the loss of a loved one, loss of a business, job, home, or some other major disaster. The typical cancer personality has lost the ability to cope with these extreme events, because his/her coping mechanism lies in his/her ability to control the environment. When this control is lost, the patient has no other way to cope. 

Major stress causes suppression of the immune system, and does so more overwhelmingly in the cancer-susceptible individual than in others. Thus personal tragedies and excessive levels of stress appear to combine with the underlying personality described above to bring on the immune deficiency which allows cancer to thrive." 

According to the Puna Wai Ora Mind-Body Cancer Clinic, "Healing cancer begins with healing your emotions. All cancer is caused by the suppression of, and the inability to let go of negative emotions including anger, hate, resentment and/or grief or guilt. These emotions create tremendous stress in the body that causes cancer over time." 

In overcoming any serious or terminal illness, I cannot stress strongly enough the importance of a positive mental/emotional outlook. Finding love and forgiveness, for yourself and others, is paramount to emotional health. I have read many books which suggest that repressed anger, hate, resentment and grief are the root emotional causes leading to the development of cancer. I strongly believe that prolonged periods of psycho-emotional stress can culminate in serious diseases because of the way that stress suppresses the function of the immune system and its ability to destroy microscopic rogue cells before the turn into cancer. 

From the time I get up in the morning to the time my head hits the pillow at night, I like to think that everything I am doing has a purpose to promote my healing and well-being. I don't think of it as work - I like to think of it as pampering myself. If I read the statistics about uterine leiomyosarcoma online, I'll be honest - it makes me nauseous. (That's why I created this blog.) But if I keep my mind solely focused on the thing I am doing in the present moment to contribute to my health and well-being, my life is rather wonderful. 

Cancer surgeon Dr Ryke-Geerd Hamer from Germany examined 20,000 cancer patients with all types of cancer. Dr Hamer noticed that all his patients seemed to have something in common: there had been some kind of psycho-emotional conflict prior to the onset of their cancer - usually a few years before - a conflict that had never fully resolved. Dr Hamer started including emotional therapy as an important part of the healing process and found that when the specific conflict was resolved, the cancer immediately stopped growing at a cellular level. Isn't that amazing?

My personal goal has been to free myself from all past hurts, resentments and all negative emotions that have been stored in my body. (For more on the "pain body," read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.) When I meditate, my doctor instructed me to send Love into any area of the body that has discomfort or is an area of concern. Love and forgiveness are essential and integral components of the complementary treatment for cancer. The first step to healing is to be open to the idea of forgiveness.

My mantra: "I desire to replace all pain with forgiveness, and have Love as the abiding energy in my body."

With their permission, I am reprinting the 28 Tasks from the Cancer Self-Healing Guide. (  If you are working through the Self-Healing Guide, I'd love to hear your comments.

At first glance, I thought it would be fairly easy to answer the questions in the Cancer Healing Guide. Once I began the process of writing my responses, however, I found that was not the case. At first it was quite difficult for me to recognize and reveal negative thoughts and emotions that I never chose to acknowledge before. My default programming is to avoid conflict at all costs, and thus I also wanted to avoid writing about any conflicts in my past or present. Scheduling a regular appointment with a therapist gave me a deadline to complete each assignment, and I don't think I would have done it otherwise. My therapist had the professional expertise to help me process and release the negative emotions once I had identified them.

Here are the 28 Tasks in the Cancer Self-Healing Guide from the Puna Wai Ora Mind-Body Cancer Clinic in New Zealand:

1. Write a short paragraph that describes your relationship with your mother.

2. Write a page about what you do/did like about your mother. It does not matter if your mother is living or has passed. If you have two mothers, write one page for each.

3.  Write a page about what you do/did not like about your mother. Try to be as honest as you can. If your mother has passed, she will want you to be honest so you can heal.

4. If there were one thing only that you could say to your mother - and it was the last thing you could ever say - what's the one thing you would really like to say to your mother?

5. Write a 2-3 page letter to your mother telling her directly how you feel about her. Express to your mother how you really feel about her deep down, not just if you love her, but if you have anger towards her, or have felt rejected by her in any way. Note: Keep this letter private and do not send it. 

6. Write a short paragraph that describes your relationship with your father.

7. Write a page about what you do/did like about your father. It does not matter if your father is living or has passed. If you have two fathers, write one page for each.

8.  Write a page about what you do/did not like about your father. As with your mother, try to be as honest as you can. If your father has passed, he will want you to be honest so you can heal.

9. If there were one thing only that you could say to your father - and it was the last thing you could ever say - what's the one thing you would really like to say to your father?

10. Write a 2-3 page letter to your father telling him directly how you feel about him. Express to your father how you really feel about him deep down, not just if you love him, but if you have anger towards him, or have felt rejected by him in any way. Note: Keep this letter private and do not send it. 

11. Write a short paragraph about your childhood, how you were feeling up to the age of 15.

12. Write a page on the following: What was the most upsetting experience for you as a child? If there is more than one experience that was very upsetting, then write a page for each.

13. Are you close to your family? Do you feel rejected by anyone in your family? Write a 2-3 page letter to your family telling them directly how you feel. Note: Keep this letter private and do not send it. 

14. Write a 2-3 page letter to God or to yourself detailing how you feel about having cancer. Also, rate your level of grief/stress/trauma from 0-10 of having cancer and of being told you have cancer. (It is very important to recognize that new conflicts in your psyche may be brought on by the very stress of having cancer or of painful or nauseating therapies.)

15. Write a whole page on the following: Who has caused you the most pain in your life? How has this person caused you pain? If you feel you wish to write further about his experience, then do so.

16. Write a whole page about a time in your life when you were abused. If there were multiple experiences, then write a page for each. If you wish to write further about each, then do so. 

17. Excluding your parents, write a short paragraph about each significant relationship you have had in your life. (i.e. husband, wife, partner, spouse, girlfriend, boyfriend)

18. Write a 2-3 page letter to each of these people you have had a significant relationship with, telling each one how you feel about them. Note: Keep these letters private and do not send them.

19. Do you suppress your emotions and your emotional needs? If so, write in detail when you do this and how you do this. (A consistent feature of those who are susceptible to cancer appears to be that they "suffer in silence," and bear their burdens without complaint. Burdens of their own as well as others weigh heavily upon these people because they, through a lifetime of suppression, internalize their problems/conflicts. This suffering in silence takes the joy out of life and leads to the inner feeling that life is too hard and not worth living, leading to the subconscious wish to die.)

20. Write a 2-3 page letter to any person you are still feeling noticeably strong feelings of anger and hate for, and explain why in your letter. This may require writing an additional letter to a parent, etc. if there are still feelings of anger and hate left unspoken or not yet resolved. If you have a belief in God, you are encouraged to write a 2-3 page letter to God, expressing any anger or hate towards God you feel about your life, so it can be released and healed. Note: Keep these letters private and do not send. 

21. Cancer may be caused by a significant loss or losses in life, resulting in complicated grief. Write a 2-3 page account of each significant loss you have experienced in your life, and explain why it is so painful. If it concerns someone who has passed over (including any miscarriages or abortions), or a relationship that has ended, write a 2-3 page account of each one. 

22. Cancer is sometimes caused by guilt, a need for punishment, which brings about the condition of illness and great pain. Write a 2-3 page letter to each person you feel you have hurt or let down, including a letter to God (if you feel you have let God down, or just generally feel like a bad person). In each letter, explain why you did what you did, or why you feel like you are a bad person, and also why you feel you should be punished and for how long. 

23. Even though you may want to stay alive for your family because you love them and they love you, is there a part of your deep down that really is tired of life, feels life has no purpose or joy anymore, and maybe you wish you didn't have to endure such a hard life? This is the time for you to be completely honest and express these feelings on paper. Write a 10 page letter to God or to yourself explaining why you do not want to be here on Earth anymore. Expressing your feeling of wanting this life to end will not manifest more cancer in your body. Not expressing these feelings will. When you express them in this way, you will bring more light and healing into this part of you that is feeling tired of life. 

24. Cancer is a disease built on the energy of fear. Write a 5 page letter to God or yourself expressing your deep fears, including your fears of living on Earth and your fears about death and dying.

25. What is the number one thing you want for YOU in your life? What do you really wish your life would be like? And what would you like to remove from your life that is causing you stress, making you tired, and depleting your will to live? Write a 10 page letter to yourself explaining what you would like your life to be like and why you deserve it. It is typical of the cancer personality to put the needs of others first while ignoring their own needs/dreams/desires. Many late-stage cancer survivors have in common the fact that they went on to pursue their dreams despite their dire diagnoses. 

26. Write a 2-3 page account of why you believe you have cancer. (The Puma Wai Ora Center teaches that a person who has cancer has suppressed many emotions throughout their life, and there is usually a final "trigger" event that occurs approximately two years prior to diagnosis that causes a subconscious wanting to die and the resultant cancer.) Write about your unhappiness in life, your desire to "exit" life at certain points, and also what you believe was the trigger event. Your desire to exit life does not mean that you had thoughts of suicide but means that you experienced that life was too hard, and you wished that the pain of life would end. 

27. Forgiving others is a key component of The Cancer Healing Guide. Write a list of everyone you feel you have not forgiven. Then write a 2-3 page letter to each of these people and explain why you are so angry with them and why you cannot forgive them. (Dr. Bernie Seigel, Clinical Professor of Surgery - Yale Medical School, "I have collected 57 extremely well documented so-called cancer miracles. At a certain particular moment in time they all decided that the anger and depression were probably not the best way to go, since they had such little time left. and so they went from that to being loving, caring, no longer angry, no longer depressed, and able to talk to the people they loved. These 57 people had the same pattern. They gave up, totally, their anger, and they gave up, totally, their depression, by specifically a decision to do so, and at that point the tumors began to shrink."

28. Write a 10 page letter to God or to yourself explaining WHY you want to live. Then once a week after that, read it out loud to affirm your resolution and determination that you now choose life. You may also want to record it on tape, instead of saying it out loud, listening to it once a week or daily.